At dawn from January 31 to February 1, 2005, I gave my first kiss to a woman. This woman, kissing me, also gave for the first time in her life a kiss on another woman. We didn't imagine all the discoveries we would make together after that. The texture of the skin, the softness of the kiss, the delicacy of the hands, the smell, the taste, everything, absolutely everything interested me, fell in love, it was love.
Lesbophobia. Fear. Preconception. Shame. Sadness. Chauvinism. Racism. These were the obstacles that repeatedly separated us. But it never ceased to be love. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
In our first year of dating, I sent flowers to her work and a note that said, "No one has ever loved you, loves you or will love you like me." At the end of the message, I signed as ADSV. We signed like this for fear of someone finding out about us. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I repeated this phrase many times, at various times, for 14 years. And I still do it in my daily prayers so she won't forget it.
She was much more like saying "I love you" than I was. He said that every day. My answer was mocking and always the same: "Still?" – And she replied smiling: "Forever."
I kissed her and talked looking at her: "don't let me forget it."
– I'll remind you every day. – She ended up kissing me.
It was too tacky, I know. But romp love is just that. And for years, many years, we could not express it freely. ⠀⠀
I remember one of the few places we felt free was at the LGBTI + parade, which at that time we still called the gay parade. It was the moment when we felt part of something bigger. It was the moment when we could express our love without fear.
The struggle today is that in the life of every LGBTI + in the world, all spaces can be safe for all forms of love. May the diversity of dreams and desires fit into real democracy. May all bodies be free to love without fear.
Tomorrow, there is a LGBTI + stop in Copacabana, at post 6. We will take to the streets reaffirming the fight so that it will not have to be done one day. So we can just celebrate.
Let's go together? 💜
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Repost Monica Benício